oh oh oh he called me his soulmate. I am his soulmate. He is mine.

Tuesday I had an anxiety attack. the biggest thing was this inability to make a decision and I could not sit still to save my life, but I could NOT walk out the door. Stayed home. Hope it doesn't increase.

Leaving the job either feb 28 or 3/15. I should do it 3/15. but I gave myself the weekend to think about it. I scheduled for a census test on Saturday and now I want to stay and work at my job... drat it all!!!

my friend invited me to dreamation but it's so close to NY, so far from here. and I want to dance.

and all the things, and worlds, and voices, and eyes, inside me clamour for my attention.