Head Over Feet - Alannis Morrisette
I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it
You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience
You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long
I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
You've already won me over in spite of me
Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault
Friday
Someone mentioned that for the way I feel about Oddity, he would go to the ends of the earth for me. I know I would do the same for him. Would someone love me that much? Could someone love me that much? Me with all the drama that swirls around me, with the kids and the exes and the impulsiveness and the massive amounts of crap I collect?
Once referred to myself as 'damaged goods'. TLC's song "Damaged" fit me so perfectly. Now, I don't think of myself as damaged goods, but I'm still full of baggage et al.
Yes, everyone comes into a relationship with baggage. And I always seem to fall for the same sort of fellow - odd, with quirks and idiosyncrasies that don't fit mainstream. I'm not interested in anyone successful, or popular, or accomplished, etc. That's just too much work. I just want someone who will love me for who I am, how I am, the way I love a person - with all their flaws and damages.
I want someone who will go to the ends of the earth for me. I won't ask that of them, but I want to know it.
Once referred to myself as 'damaged goods'. TLC's song "Damaged" fit me so perfectly. Now, I don't think of myself as damaged goods, but I'm still full of baggage et al.
Yes, everyone comes into a relationship with baggage. And I always seem to fall for the same sort of fellow - odd, with quirks and idiosyncrasies that don't fit mainstream. I'm not interested in anyone successful, or popular, or accomplished, etc. That's just too much work. I just want someone who will love me for who I am, how I am, the way I love a person - with all their flaws and damages.
I want someone who will go to the ends of the earth for me. I won't ask that of them, but I want to know it.
Wednesday
Between a rock and a hard place. My youngest is in a detention center; they can release her to my parents in NY and she'd be free of probation, but she'd be back to her old habits and wrecking everyone's lives. If she's released to me, I lose my home - Capt A does NOT want her back in the house.
The third option is going to a residential facility. The probation officer had initially told me that there weren't any that could address my youngest's issues. Well, my parents spoke to her as well and we all agreed that Teri's issues need to be addressed before she is released. So I was informed that I would have to pay for her to stay at the residential facility - it would be prorated to my pay.
There are three possible places. Windsor Point is the closest, three miles past Red Lion. I can't drive, but at least it's closer than Clearview, which is about 2.5 hours away. They also offered Adelphoi Village, which would be in another county altogether - too far from me and any family at all. Adelphoi Village, however, would be independent living and give her the skills she needs to live on her own.
I don't want her far away from me. I can't drive. So the choice is, the closer one that may be a bit of a struggle, or the far one that gives her the skills she needs? And if the farther one, do I give up my love and my life here to move close to her? She would also be giving up her love (who lives in NY). Can I sacrifice that?
I will ask her tonight. Then I'll decide. If I tell Oddity, he will stress over this and I don't want to add to his stress level. I wanted to just love him and relax; it's not going to happen. I still have some negative karma to pay for, it seems.
The third option is going to a residential facility. The probation officer had initially told me that there weren't any that could address my youngest's issues. Well, my parents spoke to her as well and we all agreed that Teri's issues need to be addressed before she is released. So I was informed that I would have to pay for her to stay at the residential facility - it would be prorated to my pay.
There are three possible places. Windsor Point is the closest, three miles past Red Lion. I can't drive, but at least it's closer than Clearview, which is about 2.5 hours away. They also offered Adelphoi Village, which would be in another county altogether - too far from me and any family at all. Adelphoi Village, however, would be independent living and give her the skills she needs to live on her own.
I don't want her far away from me. I can't drive. So the choice is, the closer one that may be a bit of a struggle, or the far one that gives her the skills she needs? And if the farther one, do I give up my love and my life here to move close to her? She would also be giving up her love (who lives in NY). Can I sacrifice that?
I will ask her tonight. Then I'll decide. If I tell Oddity, he will stress over this and I don't want to add to his stress level. I wanted to just love him and relax; it's not going to happen. I still have some negative karma to pay for, it seems.
Monday
Como puedo decir a un amigo que lo amo sin mandarlo al infierno que es un amor sin reprocidad? No lo amo como amante, aunque lo era, una vez, por unos dias. Se enamoro de me - y somos iquales en tantas cosas. Pero se que nunca sucederia; con el Raro tengo mas futuro que con Tentacion.
Me duele el corazon pensando en el dolor que el pasa en ser mi amigo, en vez tras vez encontrar aun mas cuan iguales somos.
Quitale ese dolor, Madre de la tierra; cura su corazon y alma, o padre de la selva. Traele paz; que pueda el conseguir el amor que merece.
Me duele el corazon pensando en el dolor que el pasa en ser mi amigo, en vez tras vez encontrar aun mas cuan iguales somos.
Quitale ese dolor, Madre de la tierra; cura su corazon y alma, o padre de la selva. Traele paz; que pueda el conseguir el amor que merece.
I'm scared. I had nightmares all night and the snake didn't make anything easier by being noisy. Barely slept. And today at work, my station is moving to the third floor. It's going to be a mess.
I'm stressed and tired and angry and frustrated. This has to end soon; I don't want to hit that wall and fall into that abyss again. I've got too much to look forward to, for my illness to grab hold of me now.
Goddess, help me.
I'm stressed and tired and angry and frustrated. This has to end soon; I don't want to hit that wall and fall into that abyss again. I've got too much to look forward to, for my illness to grab hold of me now.
Goddess, help me.
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