I feel horrible! My daughter was sending my granddaughter to me, and we weren't aware 11 was too young to travel on train alone. So I don't have my granddaughter. The sorrow and dissapointment she must be feeling is killing me; I love that child so much!!! I want her to myself for ever so long, just to have my baby with me, my first grandchild, this amazing wonderful delightful smart and precocious child.

I wish I could take my heart out, it hurts so bad.